i think that all this planning is finally catching up to me. while i still am a huge sucker for lists and dreaming about what award winning ad agency i'll work for after graduation, i find that lately i have this sort of 'cabin fever' thing going on. i do love toronto a whole heck of a lot, but i feel this need to move. yesterday, i googled ad agencies in hawaii. looked into getting a working visa for the united states. craiglisted apartments in santa monica, and their approximate walking distance from cp+b's santa monica (LA) office. what's going on?! california dreamin' baby. i don't even want to live in the states, i mean, i love canada, but i am drawn to the beach, the warmth and the sun. every time i see a california tourism commercial (betty white is so cute in them!) i just feel like i belong there. nevermind the discussions i had with my lovely cousin and her husband, who live in san jose, when they came down for christmas. it just seems like the place for me. maybe i don't need to move there, but i definitely need to travel. it's movies like eat pray love and into the wild that make me just want to drop it all and get away from here. i just want to forget about everything and go to places i've only seen on tv, and the occasional time when i google street view them lol, and experience new culture and see how different people live.
maybe it's that college "finding yourself" phase i'm going through, but i seem to be much less concerned with my future and figuring it all out before it happens, and just giving it the time to let it happen. don't get me wrong, i am stoked to work really hard on my book and get a wicked job, but maybe i just don't have to stress about it so much anymore, and that whatever is meant to happen will happen. maybe i won't start working the minute i graduate, which has been drilled into our heads since high school. i feel like we were put on this timeline in high school, and if you deviated from it, you were frowned upon. i think it's taken me this long in a creative learning environment to realize that maybe that timeline isn't right for everyone, and that it is okay to do your own thing. try as many things as you can. if it doesn't work out, you learn from that experience and move on. who knows? maybe i'll take a year off after school to travel, get that cabin fever out of me, and come back to toronto to work. maybe i'll get a job right away. maybe i'll move to south africa and shark cage dive and catch sweet waves in between my days as a copywriter. i've come to realize that that is the beauty in life, you never really know what is going to happen, and as hard as you try to plan for it, you just gotta go with what it throws at you. hopefully it will be something exciting :)
sorry for that huge rant, i think it is all this free time on my hands that has given me tons of time to think about things, and i just needed to get that out! is this wanderlust cabin fever thing just something i'm going through, or do a lot of students near the end of their programs get that too?? is it a creative person thing? does everyone have this urge to explore the world? i mean, there is only so much you can see through other people's travel photos ;)
soph
listening: you and i - ingrid michaelson
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